It is a week and half after new semester started. I registered quite challenging classes this semester. I take Introduction of English study, Appreciation of literature, Advanced writing, American literature, and British literature.

About registering classes, I had some problems since I am freshman on paper in here. I had visited almost all professors and explain whether they can allow me to take their classes since I am junior in home country.

All professors allowed me to take their classes except a professor of English literature class. He told me even American students often feel difficulties in his class so he can't allowed me who is second language speaker. It affected me in a totally different way of what professor intended. For me, it sounded like the other classes are for American students, but difficult only for foreign students, which equal taking British Literature class will be more fair competition. I came America not because I want to be a foreigner but want to challenge. I want to be an equal or better student than student in here. One of my friend's friend who is studying in America heard from professor that “I haven't seen people who write so much well like you.” She is what I want to be, not some weak and helpless foreign student who are just wasting money without gain.
The British literature professor keep tell me he can’t allow me because he doesn’t want to be mean giving me C or D. I thought C is not low score. I already got three C in my university. In my opinion, it is much easy to get nice grade in American's university than Korean one where grade on curve. If you do hard, you can get A in American university’s class. I keep insist the professor that I need to take this class. I could finally got consent with kind advice that I should visit his office if I got difficulties.

*I really desperate to take this class since I need some of knowledge about English literature for teacher certification examination. The desire for this class got bigger and bigger when I remind K*** University’s British literature class I took before. During whole semester, what student did was translating Pride and prejudice! That was only literature I learn in this class for whole semester. How it is silly! It is translation class not literature class! In here, students need to read all books before attending class. They should be ready for class and discussing about book.*

After semester start I don't have time to sleep. Everyday, I need to stay up until 3am to finished assignments, and I need to wake up at 7 am to get ready for classes. I got so tired in few days. I start to worry whether I can follow up these classes. Especially after I took a first class of British literature, my worry got bigger. The professor might be right...the class was difficult to understand. I considered about quitting the British literature class. I attend the second class in a hope of possibility that I get adjusted and getting better apprehension. When the professor called the register, he didn't call my name. After he saw me sitting in class, he told me “oh you come?” Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know whether he meant it or not, but it made me think he thought I quit the class realizing the class is hard. I didn’t depressed I rather firmly decided not to quite the class. I will show him that I can make it.

The good news is that I could follow up today’s class quite well which was forth class. Although I still have to study all the day to finish reading assignments—which may take only few hours for native speaker—and search resources to help my understand of literatures, it doesn't matter. I am so sick of stereotypes toward me. I want to show I can do it.